I’ve still not decided what to do about my website dilemma - the main qualm being about ditching my Red Dwarf site. You see, participating with Dwarf ‘net activity in a strictly observing capacity really appeals to me at the moment. But at the same time, I know that I’d miss being first to find things out to then share with others. Plus of course the joyous feeling of success when I’m recognised for my efforts. But I’ll spare you the details on that one, as it’ll just make me seem really big-headed.

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Okay, here’s what I’ll do… I’ll continue to update the websites as I normally would; the only difference will be uploading because I find it the most tedious part. And in saying that, all I mean is that updates *may* wait a while offline until I’ve got a few to go up all at once.Sorted.

Blood gushed from my mouth earlier, as a cheese and onion flavoured crisp cut out a large chunk of my lower gum. Still, at least the day hasn’t been completely without excitement.

Instead of a day of culture and poetry and chess, I’ve been sitting here vegetating in front of Emmerdale [Farm] like a poor, sad peasant.

I’ve been seriously lacking inspiration and motivation for a short while now. Well in fairness, the motivation aspect comes from not being inspired, as when I have a good idea, I’m almost always enthusiastic about it. Whatever - I’m giving serious consideration into ending the updates of my websites.

Better dead than smeg

The main idea behind it is to go out with a bang - none of that fizzling out nonsense. I mean, everything will probably remain as it is - it just won’t be updated again. Other than this blog, that is, as I’m quite keen to carry this on as a sort of diary. A legacy, if you will (as sad as it may read most of the time, and as sad as the idea itself may sound).

Nothing’s concrete at the moment. I just feel that it could be the time to move on. For a start, updates are becoming a bit of a chore. But more importantly, I have achieved far more than I ever set out to, so when/where do I draw the line?

On the other hand, I don’t want to abandon my sites - particularly the Red Dwarf one because of the time and effort it took to get recognised. And after four years of success, I don’t want to break the chain all to realise a few months later that I should’ve kept it going.

Realistically, none of this actually matters. I’m just thinking that if I do finish with my sites, I can focus more on new projects. My short film, Sleep, was perfect. I made the film, I made the site and that was it - end of. I want to do more standalone things like that.

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I really lost interest at RWS towards the end, but stuck it out because I don’t like to waste time - and giving up would’ve been a big waste of two years. Now at Racodac, I’m similarly ‘bored’ already. And in honesty, this may be swaying my way in thinking at the moment - wanting to do new things to compensate for the excitement that should exist but doesn’t.I’m not alone in feeling disheartened about how things are at Racodac. And knowing this is fuelling the hope that things will pick up soon.

Let’s hope so, eh?

I didn’t get to watch Columbo or Doctor Who last night after all that, as I ended up installing various electrical devices for my little brothers in their room. But I’ve just watched the repeat of Doctor Who, so all is not lost.

I don’t usually like period pieces, but Mark Gatiss’ sharply written script shined throughout - ’twas very The League of Gentlemen in many respects too.

Plus, I was reminded that Charles Dickens wrote The Signalman. How I quite forgot, mind, I’ll never know, as I loved the short story at RWS - if only for Atul K’s “Halloa! Below!” moment.

The television schedulers are being very cruel to me tonight: Columbo is on at the same time as Doctor Who. Argh!

After much consideration, I’ve decided to stay faithful to Columbo in leaving Doctor Who until the repeat tomorrow.

But first there are a couple of loose ends I’d like to tie up. Nothing important, you understand.

Really wowed by the current series of Doctor Who (which they’re confusingly calling “Series 1″), I’ve been looking into watching some of the older episodes. Genesis of the Daleks came highly recommended, so I’ve already got a copy of that waiting in my video.

Anyhow, with all the talk of who should be the next doctor (the brilliant Eccleston quit after the first episode aired), I thought I’d put Alan Davies forward as my suggestion.

Obviously I don’t regard myself an expert on Doctor Who after only two episodes. But having followed Jonathan Creek very closely since day one, I can really see Davies taking on the role and playing it well.

He looks a fair bit like Tom Baker too.

Every now and then The Bill pulls a surprise storyline out of its policeman’s helmet. And coming out of the blue next week, DI Neil Manson is arrested for moider. Dum, dum, dum.

It looks to be a real treat from the preview, so be sure not to miss it; I’ll be taping it for the archives. (That’d be the shelf above my window.)

Forgetting the fact that some amusingly queued up at the wrong venue, I’ve just read that Star Wars fans are already lining up for the opening of Episode III on 19th May.

Now, as much as I may like something, I’d never queue for longer than a day for it. Besides, in this instance it’s not as if Star Wars‘ cinema run is going to be limited, is it?

So would somebody please explain to me how this works? Presumably they’re living on the streets for the next month and a bit. So do they take food with them, or do they get their non-fan friends to bring them food? What about hygiene and visits to the lavatory? What about employment/education commitments?

Seriously, I don’t get it.

For thy viewing pleasureth, little tweakeths hath been madeth to this here blogeth.

It’s not a gift you lose.

Be sure to keep a look out for all new ::BigBlake:: and ::BigBlakeBlog:: site Easter Eggs. There are a whopping three scattered about at present and I’ll be adding more soon.